At first I kinda wanted to write about the concept of truth (something I’m learning in philosophy right now). But then I thought it would be more fun to write about being uncomfortable. Putting myself out here like this makes me uncomfortable. However, I think it is important to do things that makes us uncomfortable. I couldn’t imagine a better way to grow ourselfs inside and outside. But why do we really hate feeling uncomfortable? My belief is, it is because us as humans are fearful towards being uncomfortable. Fear is not something we want to willingly experience (unless you do, then you do you boo). So my question is how do we overcome our fear of being uncomfortable? Sometimes being uncomfortable means making the world a better place. I think people would rather choose to be comfortable than to make the world a better place. It sounds so bitter when I say it out loud, but isn’t it true? Most people aren’t willing to step outside of their comfort zone for others, while it is sad, I really don’t blame them. The result of stepping up can sometimes cause extreme backlash, and the outcome can’t be predicted. This is my theory of why people are scared of stepping up and out of their comfort zone. I’m sure I will have more to add later after thinking more on it.

The whole reason I am going to college is to get a job that will make me a lot of money and support me in life. Which is really what everyone wants out of life right? Even if going to college isn’t in the picture for some. I have told myself this for so long, that this is what I really want out of life. And yes, I do want this part of life, but I also want to feel like I have a purpose. This is why I went to college, I wanted to experience the world, find myself in this world. I come from a very very small town, so small that we only had one stoplight (my new friends couldn’t believe this). Coming to such a big college I kinda feel like I don’t belong anywhere now. I don’t relate to people in this college and I don’t relate to people from my hometown. People tell me that it takes time, I’m only in my first year. But the reality of that is, am I just stuck feeling like this until I don’t? I know that finding myself will take time and effort, but sometimes it’s a difficult pill to swallow when I wake up every morning and feel like I haven’t found my place of belonging. It makes me anxious.

So, long story short, I have decided to step out of my comfort zone to try to find myself. I don’t know how long this will take (and I really don’t want to think about that), but honestly, this feels like a step in the right direction. At least I hope.

~ Anonymous writer